Of Easter and Loneliness

I have always enjoyed Easter. It is a reminder of my commitment to my Christian beliefs. I was baptized on Easter when I was a young girl., at the church that many of my family would go to for years, even if only intermittently for me. I was married in that same church.

And it traditionally has been a chance to meet up with family, catch up on activities, and enjoy a good meal together. I love having family around, even if it is only one or two family members.

Maybe I am just feeling "empty nest syndrome", or maybe being selfish, but this Easter just doesn't feel right. David moved out a few months ago, and although I have a roommate, he has his own life. No one coming over, no dinner (except what I made for myself). Even though David is less than a mile away living with Candace and her family, somedays like today, it seems like he is thousands of miles away. He is still recovering from tonsil surgery, so he wouldn't be up to coming anyway.

And I miss Diana and Jonny. I know it won't be long until they are here, but it can't come soon enough for me. Being so far away from them has left my heart aching.

I did go to Bloodsource and donated platelets and red cells today. Giving of myself did help me to feel a little better about today, but it still doesn't feel right.

Maybe next Easter will be better.